Okay, here's the thing. I WAS suppose to write about how bad my vacation's going, but I decided not to. So...

Merry Christmas! Happy Hanukkah! Happy Holidays! and Have A Prosperous New Year!

...to everyone.

[Does anyone celebrate Kuanzaa? If so, Im greeting you too.]

Yes, i had a sad day today...and the latter part ain't any better...

The story:
-My teacher was disappointed of my class(scary morning)
-A teacher breaks my class' hearts(but he was hurt too...)
-Another teacher got kinda mad at my class(b-but we didn't know she was already there...)
-How one of my classes ended was sad(it was painful and depressing...and i like the class)
-I couldn't go to training today 'cause I was busy(i promised my coach i would go)
-My sister and father were panicking like hell(they were at my training early)
-It rained like the apocalypse(and i didn't have an umbrella...)
-My mom cried! ( TTTT A TTTT;;; )
-No one wants to talk to me at home...(they're too busy and cranky tonight)
-I wanna cry...but I can't(i don't know why...i just can't...)

~THE END~



Note: You don't need to say anything...I just wanted the stress out of my system already...

I seriously want to know what you guys think of this story i found. I just read it randomly, then it got me thinking. what do you say?

[link]

Just read the whole thing and tell me what you think it's about.

Sorry to those I promised to hang out with for today and the succeeding days, but it turns out that I'm grounded for awhile. Not so sure why I am and how long, but I won't be online for a few days(or weeks, if I turn into an idiot). As much as I want to sneak my way to the computer 'cause I love you guys and you're all awesome, I don't want to lose my computer privileges. So, I'll see you guys when I do.(though, i still have no idea when that will be)Again, I'm sorry and I promise to make it up to you guys somehow.

Wow...I'm not sure what to do anymore. I feel like an idiot at home, in school, everywhere... I've disappointed my family, friends, classmates, teachers, etc...but mostly myself... I don't what to do anymore and i also don't know what to believe in either... All my emotions are mixed up and unstable, and I've lost all hope of ever finding my purpose... Maybe i deserve to die early...'cause sooner or later, i will... Like what we hear every now and then, "Why must the good die young?". People have said i was a good person, and some have even said I'd die early if i didn't stop being nice. Well...I've learned to accept that fact if it is my destiny. Who can say? Maybe i just need to do one heroic deed, and I'm gone... or maybe I'll die like the fool i am now. You just never know... Another thing people tend to say, "keep your loved ones close, 'cause you never know when your last moment together will be" or something to that extent. I think I've done that, but I'm not sure... I always tried my best to trust everyone, even if they hated me or didn't trust me back or hurt me...it didn't matter to me, just as long as I could be with them. Although, I'm not sure if i can take anymore beatings or if i even care anymore... I don't want to leave anyone or anything behind, but i feel my existence is causing them nothing but misery and trouble.

I think we can all say I'm being too dramatic, demanding and anything else you guys can think of(really,anything[no matter how bad it is]is fine)...but i just can't help it...my whole self is gone...



I'm sorry I can't be useful to any of you...you can do anything you want with/to me, i wont even make a second remark...